الأحد، 20 ديسمبر 2009

Moving on


"You can't stay in that ghostly existence..," "There's a whole new world out there that you should exploer...," I've been listening to all sorts of well intentioned advice and comments like these for some time now, they all tell you to move on.

What that really means is: no it's not enough that you got hurt in that way, there's a whole wide world filled with all sorts of pain and distress that you are just depriving your self of.

Try new things and you'll be surprised at how you once thought; I've seen the worst of it, nothing can hurt me anymore. So, you're a shy person, you hate speaking in public, now why should you stay peacefully at a place or a job that doesn't require presentations and lectures, noooo, you must challenge yourself, you must put yourself in the situation you hate the most, cause you are not "growing" or "developing your skills" your not looking for new cheeese if you don't do that. mmm, I see, so I did it, I did it badly, and I hated it. Well, that is just excellent, all you have to do now, is to do it again, and again, and the more you hate it, the more you should do it, cause that is Leeeaarning. Soon enough after a thousand failed experience, and thousand agonizing situation you'll be juuuust finne.

well, ok maybe, I guess, so I'm doing this to "move on" and get along with my life, but all it does is make me miserable and remind of a time when I was happy, and makes me feel the loss more. mmm that's nothing, who cares, as long as you're Moving Onnnn.

Brilliant, so now my options are: fail, and be miserable about it, and of course that means soul searching for you wanna do, cause "whatever you do, you can't stay where you are"। Or succeed, and continue in that miserable job. boy! I just can't wait to see the outcome of that.



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Dalia w Ahmed يقول...

you are hilarious :)
it is suppose to be a sad depressed post but you managed to make me laugh :D

I know exactly what you are talking about, but no matter how gloomy ur thoughts are, there is one obvious truth "YOU ARE GETTING BETTER"
Now as you say “getting better doesn’t necessary mean you are happier, that's true. But it is still BETTER”

I want you to recall when all this tragedy begin.. you couldn't get up in the morning cause it is painful to breath and stay a life... You may not be happier now... but you have made an attempt to find a new thing to do. Now That’s something

When people get a flu they stay in pain for 2 days and then they are back.... when they get bone break they could stay in pain for months... if they get cancer they would stay in pain for years

and what you have been through darling is nothing like flu.... u r not happier... but you are better... you are back to where you started... but u will find a passion to hang on to.... I promise you it will happen